xhesika: (changed my mind)

She sighs, “Jenna, never emotionally invest yourself in a man, it always ends up messy.”
I snort, “I know.”
She looks at me incredulously.
I sigh, “I let Royce kiss me.”
Ritz moans, “Oh, Jenna! Not a druggie!”
“It was gross. Then I told him it was gross. Now I don’t think we’re on speaking terms.”
She pats me on the back and leans her head back down on my shoulder. “He’ll get over it, or maybe he was high and won’t remember.”
She has such high expectations of Royce….


I have such fun ideas about Gale and Ritz as parents. I think someday I might do little shorts...for personal pleasure. Those along with that WWII thing. I am a fan of Hellsing and what they did with Vampires/Zombies/and Nazis...and so tastefully too....

Something else I'm noticing: after writing two sequels to Bastian and working on the fourth the ending of Bastian is now incredibly tragic to me. I liked it better when it just made the reader angry at the characters, but this is actually really interesting how its filling out.

Also, looks like Jenna is going to be DOUBLE what the other books are at least. Eighth chapter and I'm already 20k words in...and Jenna isn't even on track to go where she needs to be for the book to be HALF over. I am enjoying the writing style, Bastian's cynicism with Gale's observation and vocabulary. Every description is chilling and wonderful.

Will probably find the most chilling thing to post in chapter eight before the night is out. I posted a little on Twitter and got a reply from an Arachnophobe friend that the effect was reached.

Ya know, I never thought I would like writing horror as much as I do.


xhesika: (She Won't Look at You)
New manager at work, her name is Lea and she is wonderful. I adore her. However others not so much? I'm not alone in that I love her and think she's great for the store, but some people think she's too strict? And others just clash completely. But we'll see what happens in the next few days/weeks and who quits.

Speaking of work, I really need to work on my language. Most of the time I'm good about it, but when I start to get tired...well, I don't think even sailors say the things I do. Maybe I should apologize to Tyler for getting on him about that sex change too....

Nah.

Anywho, made food today, onigiri, and I ate every last damn morsel, it was delicious. There is a stash under the bed of goodies, I will take a picture and catalog everything for your viewing pleasure later. Its pretty damn impressive, like the zombie apocalypse stash.

I talked to Christina very briefly today, she worked at the Tim Horton's at the hospital, she's a manager there now. She was talking about setting something up so that she and Samm could come visit me. I'm all teary now and want to see them, I miss everyone so much. And I'm back to feeling dead in this place and don't want anyone to see me like this... At least I have time to psych myself up.

Supposed to be working on Jenna, and I love it, suddenly everything comes together and I realize that everything matches up perfectly with no effort, I don't even know how I pulled that off. But I want to work on Artemis. I love the way Artemis makes me feel...no homo. The trouble is that I've already come to terms with the fact that I would have to start over and re-write a lot to get back into the swing of things, and that would take a while. I need to finish Jenna first, then go back over David, then fine tune Gale, then make sure Jenna works, all the while editing Bastian and moving consecutively.

I'm a busy bunny.

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Apr. 11th, 2012 08:02 am
xhesika: (RedBaron)
Written two years ago, verbatim. This little snippet of dialogue was never changed and has been consistent, Jenna talking about Ms. Helen:

Jenna crossed her arms over her chest, “Because she has nothing better to do, she sucked her life out of her family and they all died.”

WTF.

I need to step away from the computer for a few minutes I think.

xhesika: (tealfashion)
Did some editing on my days off, which is good, I always feel happy after editing.

We're coming up on a monster chapter, the first climax of the book. Both Bastian and David were written with two climaxes, one in the middle, and then one at the end. Gale has a lot more, I should actually go through and count them to be honest, but Jenna is only going to have one because of all the building up to it that has to happen.

So my editor, Kory, and I are sitting around after finishing up Chapter 25, I'm working on Jenna, and she's moving onto Chapter 26 when she all of a sudden goes wide-eyed and weepy.

Before I go on I'll have to tell you something about what is going on in Jenna. Jenna meets Adam, and the two of them hit it off well, I'm going to be weaving in some really demure and simple sweet stuff, but because Jenna is not a sexual character by any means, and is a driven, strong heroine she does not need a man, nor does she get one by the end of the book. All that aside Kory ships them like her OTP, because Gale and Ritz are...kinda messed up when you get into them, and Jenna and Adam are the only pairing that is really understandable.

So Kory found something that Bastian says, and although he doesn't realize who he's saying it about, he's talking about Adam, and the comment he makes is incredibly cold. It was enough for my editor to run to the freezer and pull out a pint of ice cream for about fifteen minutes while I promised that I would write short stories post-Jenna for her.

So while I'm really rather proud of the fact that I was able to basically put my editor into an emotional-ice cream eating coma for a little just based on characters that she's only read about through Bastian (anything she knows about the other books is through ideas that I've bounced off her, she's saving the other books for when she gets to them in the editing process.) I'm not looking forward to when she gets to Jenna and starts getting mad at me for how cynical Jenna is.

But she gets that from her brother really.

In the meantime, I'm having a blast writing again, I need to buckle down and edit the other books in short segments between chapters I think. I shouldn't hold off on writing for so long ever again like I did with this book, it feels too good to write.

"This is the noise that keeps me awake, my head explodes and my body aches."

Ohio

Mar. 18th, 2012 08:59 am
xhesika: (tealfashion)
Probably one of the most shallow things I've ever stated, but I feel less depressed feeling attractive.

So I'm at Tammi's apartment right now, she's at work and I'm working on Jenna (loving it too by the way, omg writing feels so good), I like the apartment even more now that I'm here. When I'm in Waterford I try to dress for the day despite staying in the house, but it's never anything that I would go out of the house in. Today and yesterday I was presentable, like I used to be, and I feel attractive, and it actually makes me feel a little better about myself. Not such a mess. The thing is just that I can't justify getting myself put together like this if I'm not going to see anyone I know, or going to be cooped up in the house all day, and getting posh'ed up when I am just doing that is all the more depressing.

Just need to move, that's what.

There is a hospital not far from the apartments, and I am seriously thinking of going for that. George has guarenteed me a job, but to be honest I am so tired of making so much less than I was at the hospital, I am willing to trade. Better hours, better pay, and more time to write, like last time. It would feel good to get my life back on track.

I saw Samm yesterday, and I was all sorts of proud of myself for not crying.

I called Mr. Black to talk to him yesterday when we were in the car on our way down here, I did start tearing up a bit while talking to him, I like how honest I can be with him, and I really like how he treats me like more of a daughter than my own parents do. I'd love to be a parent like him someday.
xhesika: (Default)
I shake my head quickly, I got un-interested in medicine really quick when I got a hold of Gale’s copy of Grey’s Anatomy and was able to translate one word he had scribbled in Romanian next to a heart diagram: zeamă, juice. More specifically, meat juice.


[2:36:30 PM] Kat Lavisk: ...
[2:36:33 PM] Kat Lavisk: LOL.
[2:36:38 PM] Kat Lavisk: oh... god.
[2:36:38 PM] Jessica Chambers: why would you look at a vampires copy of grey's anatomy?
[2:36:42 PM] Jessica Chambers: just ASKING for trouble
[2:36:47 PM] Jessica Chambers: why why why
[2:36:57 PM] Kat Lavisk: cause it's Jenna
[2:37:10 PM] Jessica Chambers: "oh awesome grey's anatomy, i love these pics"
[2:37:14 PM] Jessica Chambers: yup gale does too
[2:37:53 PM] Kat Lavisk: ...
[2:38:02 PM] Kat Lavisk: that sounds... uh.
[2:38:11 PM] Jessica Chambers: so wrong
[2:38:13 PM] Kat Lavisk: like grey's anatomy is a vampire's playboy.
[2:38:20 PM] Jessica Chambers: LOLOLOLOLOLOL
[2:38:48 PM] Jessica Chambers: dying atm

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